Exciting times... in Casa 'Scraps

So I met a man... *blush*

Actually, I've known him for years, just not in years. The guy I wanted to talk to? Yeah, its him. He's really come around since the last few times I asked around about him. And he's really, pretty great.

I asked him to meet us for a drink on the 6th... we've pretty much been inseparable since then. Is it smart? *shrug shoulders* Am I moving too fast? *shrug shoulders*

I thought about "playing it cool" about "taking it slow"... but come on! Who are we kidding. Do I "play it cool" and possibly miss out on the one purely spontaneous thing I've ever done? It was SO freaking fun going to the lake on the spur of the moment.

I decided to go for it. Be honest, open, and let him know when I need a break. It will happen and I won't be afraid to take it.

It's crazy. *Yes* But it feels great.

So...

I kissed a boy this weekend... the last time I kissed him was 14 years ago.

And now I'll sit here and daydream. *smiling*

I've been a boring blogger lately...

It's difficult. I truly believe, although I don't always follow through, that if you don't have anything nice to say... shut it.

I have been so preoccupied with pain these days that I haven't blogged about anything in quite some time.

I don't know this will change, but it is my goal.

That being said, I'm in a weird place myself these days. I'm finally getting the pain under control, thank you back surgery, and I'm finding myself wanting more. I'm ready for the love of my life. No shitty ex-husbands, no stupid controlling boyfriends... I want a healthy, loving relationship. I want my fucking prince charming. I deserve it, dammit.

I'm dreaming these crazy dreams... I see myself in these dreams, so unbelievably happy that I'm dancing, twirling, acting like the happiest person to walk this fine earth. I truly don't know if I've been that happy in real life. That's a shame.

I'm not feeling bad about myself, I finally, for the first time, think I have my shit all together. I have a great job, great friends and family, great house all to myself... but I feel like I'm missing something... someone. I just don't know where he is.

I'm not looking... I'm waiting... I'm patient, I know it has to happen.