I've been a boring blogger lately...

It's difficult. I truly believe, although I don't always follow through, that if you don't have anything nice to say... shut it.

I have been so preoccupied with pain these days that I haven't blogged about anything in quite some time.

I don't know this will change, but it is my goal.

That being said, I'm in a weird place myself these days. I'm finally getting the pain under control, thank you back surgery, and I'm finding myself wanting more. I'm ready for the love of my life. No shitty ex-husbands, no stupid controlling boyfriends... I want a healthy, loving relationship. I want my fucking prince charming. I deserve it, dammit.

I'm dreaming these crazy dreams... I see myself in these dreams, so unbelievably happy that I'm dancing, twirling, acting like the happiest person to walk this fine earth. I truly don't know if I've been that happy in real life. That's a shame.

I'm not feeling bad about myself, I finally, for the first time, think I have my shit all together. I have a great job, great friends and family, great house all to myself... but I feel like I'm missing something... someone. I just don't know where he is.

I'm not looking... I'm waiting... I'm patient, I know it has to happen.